Bad days like these....

I can honestly say that I wish that I could get over this "sick" feeling but it just keeps coming back to me. Yesterday, I had to do so much work for my classes that I pushed myself every minute. When I woke up yesterday, I knew that I would be a bad day but I was determined to be like everyone else. I walked into my class at 1:30pm and I realized that I would up chuck any time soon. I continued to keep my mind off of the pain in my side and my back but I knew the rest of the day would be bad.  I have a 20 minute worrying bell before I have to throw up, so I knew that I had to talk to my professor in my next class. I waited until she got there, when she got there I realized that I only had about 5 minutes (My face was red and sweating). I call Dr z to make sure she was in the office because I knew that I was NOT GOING TO MAKE another minute without feeling sick. I ran to the bathroom on the 9th floor and just like I thought, it all came out.

The hardest part is that I get so upset with the fact that I am sick. I just want to be somewhat the same way I use to be. The problem is I push myself way too hard to be somewhat "normal." I am so grateful for the people who know that I have no limit for myself because they jumped in without missing a single beat.

Today, I still have the pain in my side and I am extremely exhausted. However, I did finish my homework last night and I finished the assignments that are due tomorrow. I went to class this morning also. I work so hard some times that I don't realize that I have pushed way too far. But I would rather push too hard than not push at all.

"Pain is temporary. Quitting is forever" - Lance Armstrong