I can't breathe..

As the world moves forward and the things change in my life, I can't breathe from the amount of anxiety that is mounting inside of me. I try my best to remain calm and remain happy but honestly, I can't breathe at all from the pressure. I feel like there is nothing I can do to get out. The walls are closing on me and I can't see a window. I want to be normal and I feel like I'm stuck. I still have really bad days with the pain in my back and I still get really tired. I don't know if it's me or just that I'm not allowing myself to move. I want to make these big decisions but I shut down and get overwhelmed with the next step! I feel like a failure... I really don't know what to do. I really don't. I want to be a strong person but honestly, it's hard when you feel alone without anyone to talk to that will understand. I've been asking God what I need to do next. He shows me the beauty in everyday but I don't seem what I can do to move forward. I really hope that people don't think I'm weak for this post but honestly, I'm scared, nervous, anxious, lost, and I need advice. I want to be amazing but honestly I don't feel amazing right now...