The Residuals

So with all the great things that happen with treatment in cancer, there are A LOT of things that cancer patients don't talk about. So I would like for you all to know a few things that I have gone through...
1. The hot flashes still happen all day, everyday but my tolerance became better
2. The discoloration on my finger nails and toe nails (The color is so horrible people notice)
3. The pain never goes away in my back but it makes me stronger
4. My hair isn't the same and its hard to explain to new people why it isn't
5. My mind set will never be the same
6. The look in your loved one's eyes when they call you beautiful because they see the true beauty and strength in a cancer survivor!! The words "you look good" has so much more meaning then it has before.
***Most importantly making those in your life understand and see the fact that you have gotten better. Some don't understand the new you. My mindset is different in a great way. Its the best part about having cancer. :-) You learn to love everyday a little more than the last.

The ups and downs of life

Hello to all my readers!! I apologize for the lengthy period of time between postings but I've been pretty busy learning new things about statistics! I'm so happy with the fact that I have so many people in my life that care so very deeply about me. The more I look at the past year in depth, I realize the extreme strides that everyone who was there during the marathon race for my life. If I could find the amount of money and time that was given to me during my time of need, I would owe both those people and sallie Mae the rest of my life. If I could add the amount it would be way too much to place in the bank. I'm so grateful for the special people who have gone the extra mile for me. I have also had the pleasure to see the wonderful amounts of disappointment from people really close to me. If I could do it all over, I'm glad that I've had the chance to see them in their true light. Fear can change people but it's the way you deal with it that makes us who we are. My fear allowed me to see the beauty that God has created here on this earth. Given the opportunity to change it all would be like giving God the impression that I have not grown or learn from this situation. The ability to let go of hard situations and learn from them. I'm so lucky to see how amazing life is, next step the rest of my life.