The physical change....

It's most commonly known and heard that women are never satisfied with the way their bodies look. I can honestly say that I have been a member of that crew. However when your body changes drastically due to medication I'm not so sure it's quite the same. My body has changed a lot in the past few months... Here's my list:
- The obvious change was my hair falling out every day.
- Taking steroids increased my weight by 15-20 lbs in a month
- My tongue changed colors ( from pink to a black color)
- My nails turned black on the base of each nail (fingers and toes)
- I have a scar that runs the complete length of my back. (my zipper)
- My face had extremely horrible acne
- I lost my eyebrows and nose hair
- My skin is incredible dry ALL OVER
- The skin on my neck and back has peeled off (sort of like Michael Jackson)
- At one point using the bathroom was extremely hard. (#2 that is)
- I'm still dealing with the fact that my mind and my bladder aren't on the same page.
( I go to the bathroom like my little brother and sister)
***Last but the best part of chemo is that I no longer get a monthly visit. :-)

Hard days are the ones when you look in the mirror and literally hate everything you see. The moment you realize thar you no longer look the same. I have learned to enjoy my inner beauty more and more each day. Truth be told hair is only a decoration nothing more.